Some things I think about when her name is mentioned are; family, friendship, love and trust. Those subjects are what matter most. Being family the quality of friendship is natural and being closer is even better. Lisa and I are not as close as some, but I have noticed that distance brings more closeness then being down the street. Living that close you won’t find much change and wouldn’t enjoy the time spent talking to each other as much, as if you were to live further away and create new moments everyday that you could share. I’d find that you may enjoy the conversation much more if there were new things to discuss.
My sister and I never really grew up together; she lived with my grandmother while I stayed at home with my mom. Besides the eight year age gap, she was usually busy with school, or working, but she attempted to make time for me when she could. During the short time period before adulthood, we managed to have several heated moments as well as many arguments but somehow we survived.
As she got older things begun to change, Lisa graduated high school and got a better job, and fell in love. While watching her steps, she made major discussions involving her new life as an adult. I was growing just as she was but not as fast, then again I was still much younger and in being young I didn’t know how to accept change.
After many years of growing and learning about change myself, I found a new type of connection with Lisa. I used to say the word ‘hate’ very often when she was around always vowing to never be like her, but deep down inside I found that I envy her and always wish I could have taken the steps as carefully as she did, to follow her lead as she offered it rather then to put all my energy to avoid it. I sometimes still imagined what I could have been like if I were to have followed her lead before I got hit with the detour that has brought me to where I stand.
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